As I stood in front of the mirror today...I saw before me the reality of the truth in the reflection. You know how you can look in a mirror and say, "Not too bad." or "Ok, now that looks pretty good." and then later see a photo of yourself from that very same day and wish you had never stepped out of the bathroom? ! ! !Well, today I allowed my mind to show me the truth...to not allow the reflection to trick me into believing I wasn't really seeing what I was seeing! It was not a pretty picture...but that's ok. I'm not going to judge the person I am inside, because of what I'm seeing on the outside. This is HUGE! (no pun intended!) I know that the person, the being, the spirit within me is beautifully and wonderfully made. With this said, I am choosing to Embrace the New Me from the inside out.
As I embark on this journey of renewal I am choosing to love every part of myself and that means what I see in the reflection AND the photos. Don't get all twisted thinking I'm thinking I'm all that...so now I'm in love with myself! What I mean by loving All of Me is that I will now Respect Myself. Lack of respecting my outer shell and the temple in which God gave me to house my spirit has me now dealing with 70lbs of excess baggage and the possibility of major health issues in my near future! Now that is reality!
It all boils down to CHOICES!
My weight is a result of poor choices; bad eating habits, sugar addiction, and denial! "This one little bite won't hurt me!" We are fools to believe ourselves sometimes!
WARNING: Lying to yourself can be harmful to your health!
Stress and emotional eating is a real thing and unless I get to the core issues that causes my emotional eating habits, it will remain an issue in my life. So this journey is not going to be just about me doing a diet to lose weight. It's about finding that fork in the road where I should have gone right but I chose to go left! It's about discovering the why's and not just the how's. This roller coaster is about to come to a halt...for good!
Another part of getting past the thoughts that keep me in bondage, is getting past be concerned about what other people think of me. Being afraid of being judged. A perfect example is how I have avoided public exercise such as walking or swimming or even joining a gym, due to the fact I didn't want others to see me in such a state of disrepair. The nice part is I live in such a beautiful city full of public parks, trails, streams, rivers and lakes! But sadly even though I'm 5 minutes away from amazing views all around me...I sit....paralyzed by my own stinkin' thinkin'! THIS is going to change!
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Yes, things are about to change for me...in a Major way. The shell is cracking...the cage door is opening...the person I am is emerging....and I'm excited to share it with all who are willing to walk this path with me!
The old me would apologize for these pics...
The new me says: Look with me at where I've been and where I'm heading!
Thank you for taking this step and letting us be a part of your journey. I will be by your side..
ReplyDeleteHey girl - I'm proud of you!! You just need to be ready and it sounds like you are. 2 things...
ReplyDeleteDon't cheat!
And NEVER GIVE UP!!
You're gonna do great :-)
You are going to do GREAT!! I can already tell :)
ReplyDeleteYou have always been beautiful to me! Inside and out. It is never too late to take a journey that will change who we thought we were into whom we have now become. We have begun taking karate lessons. I love it.
ReplyDeleteLove you Sister.
Hi! I saw you at Jaimie's blog and came over to check out your blog. Good points you make about the mind/body connection. I love Bob Harper's saying, "Fake it until you make it.", and also, "It's not about being in control; it's about being empowered." There has to be a part of us that sees who we want to be right now in this moment and draw on that. Those minor changes in thinking can create huge changes in our approach, and ultimately the results that we achieve. One of my new favorite sayings is from Ali Vincent, "If you believe it, you can be it." You're doing great!
ReplyDeleteThank you to all of you! It's so inspiring just knowing...you're NOT alone!
ReplyDeleteHey Girl! You are truly inspiring and together we can all reach our goals. Funny that a week ago I googled belly fat and WOW I am so excited. Never heard of Jorge or the BFC and now in less than a week lost 4 lbs 1 inch off belly, going potty much better and NOT hungry. YEA! Keep up the great work and thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Diane! Yeah...I've almost completed my first week now...and I'm thrilled with this plan! My husband and son(23) are also changing with me...makes for a happy family! Thanks again!
ReplyDeleteYou know how you can look in a mirror and say, "Not too bad." or "Ok, now that looks pretty good." and then later see a photo of yourself from that very same day and wish you had never stepped out of the bathroom?
ReplyDeleteUgh! This is the story of my LIFE. I like myself so much inside that it's sometimes hard for me to look in the mirror and recognize that this is who I am on the outside.
This is a great post with great advice. I don't want to say "good luck", because I know this isn't about luck, but I think you'll know what I mean.
Katie...You are in a great place already if you "already like *yourself" HUGE!!! So if you can't look right now...it's ok...just keep on making those little changes that will change the outer shell and one day...when you look in the mirror! WOW! What you see will be YOU! Inside and Out! I'm learning how to Love Me...ALL of ME! Let me know if I can help you in any way...I'm here for ya!
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