As I stood in front of the mirror today...I saw before me the reality of the truth in the reflection. You know how you can look in a mirror and say, "Not too bad." or "Ok, now that looks pretty good." and then later see a photo of yourself from that very same day and wish you had never stepped out of the bathroom? ! ! !
Well, today I allowed my mind to show me the truth...to not allow the reflection to trick me into believing I wasn't really seeing what I was seeing! It was not a pretty picture...but that's ok. I'm not going to judge the person I am inside, because of what I'm seeing on the outside. This is HUGE! (no pun intended!) I know that the person, the being, the spirit within me is beautifully and wonderfully made. With this said, I am choosing to Embrace the New Me from the inside out.
As I embark on this journey of renewal I am choosing to love every part of myself and that means what I see in the reflection AND the photos. Don't get all twisted thinking I'm thinking I'm all that...so now I'm in love with myself! What I mean by loving All of Me is that I will now Respect Myself. Lack of respecting my outer shell and the temple in which God gave me to house my spirit has me now dealing with 70lbs of excess baggage and the possibility of major health issues in my near future! Now that is reality!
It all boils down to CHOICES!
My weight is a result of poor choices; bad eating habits, sugar addiction, and denial! "This one little bite won't hurt me!" We are fools to believe ourselves sometimes!
WARNING: Lying to yourself can be harmful to your health!
Stress and emotional eating is a real thing and unless I get to the core issues that causes my emotional eating habits, it will remain an issue in my life. So this journey is not going to be just about me doing a diet to lose weight. It's about finding that fork in the road where I should have gone right but I chose to go left! It's about discovering the why's and not just the how's. This roller coaster is about to come to a halt...for good!
Another part of getting past the thoughts that keep me in bondage, is getting past be concerned about what other people think of me. Being afraid of being judged. A perfect example is how I have avoided public exercise such as walking or swimming or even joining a gym, due to the fact I didn't want others to see me in such a state of disrepair. The nice part is I live in such a beautiful city full of public parks, trails, streams, rivers and lakes!
But sadly even though I'm 5 minutes away from amazing views all around me...I sit....paralyzed by my own stinkin' thinkin'! THIS is going to change!
Yes, things are about to change for me...in a Major way. The shell is cracking...the cage door is opening...the person I am is emerging....and I'm excited to share it with all who are willing to walk this path with me!
The old me would apologize for these pics...
The new me says: Look with me at where I've been and where I'm heading!